Fish Sticks and Green Jello

On Sunday I went to the wedding of my boyfriend's friend Yvonne, who also happened to be my last manager at work. The wedding took place at the Mill Pond in Soquel which was a really lovely spot. My only real gripe about the day was the temperature and the fact that I wore a summery dress with a light shawl so I wound up freezing most of the day since the whole thing was outdoors including the reception.

When I first knew I was going to the wedding I wasn't really excited about it. I generally hate the idea of weddings because I'm not sure if I'll ever get married and I'm a bit bitter in general about love/relationshps. Sometimes I feel like marriage and kids are something that society tells you that you're supposed to be doing at a certain age and if you don't there's something wrong with you. I know some of my friends (not many) really feel strongly about it and are bothered by the fact that I'm not always sure about it.

I went to the wedding and loved it. It was such an incredibly nice wedding. I know that they didn't spend tons of money on it but it was so lovely just the way it was that I can't see how they would have put much more into it than they did. I really liked that there weren't bridesmaids and groomsmen, it was so simple with just the two of them. I also really liked the music they played during the wedding. The bride walked down the aisle to "What a Wonderful World" by Louis Armstong. The bride also wore an orange dress which she made. Now when I first heard it was orange I wasn't sure what to think but when I saw it I have to admit that it was very nice. It was Indian style with an orange (and red) beaded coat over an orange dress with a butterfly clasp. And you know that old adage about radiant brides? It was true. I don't think I've ever seen her look as lovely as that day. The food at the reception was delicious, and the outdoor woodsy setting with the pond was very nice as well. I'm pretty much gushing about it at this point but I was really impressed by it and one day if I ever get married I'm sure I'll want to steal some ideas from their wedding. Basically it was nice to see someone have a great wedding without doing the overblown $30K plus wedding. The two of them look perfect together and I know they are going to have a really wonderful life together. They're pretty darn lucky and I have to say I'm a bit envious. I wish them the best though.

I did get pretty emotional about the whole thing. It made me think a lot about life and the future and what I want out of it. I'm still not 100% sure but I think that I have a better idea now then I ever did before in my life. I'm always evolving as a person and I have to hope that if things are meant to happen for me they will. I really can't control my future but I can hope for the best.