Fish Sticks and Green Jello

Phew, a night to myself. Oh happy day. Not that I mind having friends and family visit. I love seeing everyone I have in the last couple of weeks. It's just great to have my place to myself on such a lovely evening. It's also great to spend an evening at home without feeling rushed to go out just because it's Friday. I have lots of other stuff planned for the rest of the weekend so why not just enjoy my Friday for me? That's right! Me Time!

Speaking of me time. Here's some thoughts I have on life now as who I am today, at this moment, a single person living life. It's interesting. The whole grass is always greener thing. When you're single you don't want to be, and when you're not single you miss the good single times. At least some people feel that way. I know I have in the past. There are so many things I love about being single that it makes it difficult sometimes to imagine having to give those things up. The one thing I know I love the most is having time to myself. I can have a whole weekend to myself if I want it. Pretty much when I want it! I know when I've lived with people it's been tough to get time to myself and being single really makes me appreciate these moments.

I've had a lot of ups and downs in my dating life. Lots of highs and lows and while I'd definitely trade in some of them not all of my experiences were bad. What I take away from my life's experience up to this point is the knowledge that I'm just THAT much closer to what it is I'm looking for in my life. That thing I've always known I've wanted but haven't quite found yet. Sure I've wasted time doing other things which were just pointless, but it's all part of learning about who I am as a person. I've been on this road a long time and sure I've made mistakes but I'm happy with the person I'm still evolving to be. The person I was say 5 years ago or even 10 years ago is a complete stranger to the person I've become today.

I've been out there in the thick of things, fighting the good fight! Trying to experience life and find what I want. Trying this type of person, or that type of place to live. This type of friend, that type of social scene and so on and so forth. I'm not a perfect person and heck I may not even be a great person to some but this is who I am and this is who I have to work with. All I can do is strive to find happiness in my own life and hope to make others happy around me (at least some of the time). I can't justify who I am to people. All I can do is hope that people can understand and accept who I am if they so choose to. I'm not such a bad person. ;) Try me, you may like me!

Life's pretty nice. I've got a good group of friends that are pretty supportive of me. Amazing friends that bring a lot of joy and fun to my life. I could fill every night of the week spending time with a different friend and that thought makes me happy. It makes me happy to know that there are so many great people around me. Friends really are one of the most important things you can have in your life.

And hey not that I'm trying to redeem any brownie points but I've paid some dues and I'm thinking that maybe something extra special is just around the corner for me. You never know. Whether it is or not, it's just like that crappy song "Don't worry, Be Happy". Yeah the song stinks but it's spot on to how I'm feeling right about now.