Fish Sticks and Green Jello

Well last night was 1984's Prom Night at the Cat Club. I haven't been to '84 since I went last Thanksgiving and it's funny to know that no matter how long it's been you still see some of the same people there you saw last time around. Jeremy and I didn't dress up, of course, but a bunch of our friends did. We're talking tuxes, prom dresses, corsages you name it! They all looked fabulous! I at least finally got to wear my cool colorfully striped Miss Sixty halter with my fabulous matching hot pink leather belt and pointy hot pink heels! I also got a nice buzz on and had a pretty darn good time actually. I definitely won't frequent '84 like some of my other friends do but these special occasion outings are always a good time. I'd like to give a shout out to all the bad ass prom peeps aka Shawn, Libby, Mark, Danae, Greg, Raquel, Dave, Ken and the rest of the group that was there.

So as far as the running into of people I knew, last night was a bigger turnout than usual. I of course saw my ex-boyfriend Sam there. I saw him there last time too. We don't talk ever. We had a really bad breakup, mostly due to my really bad behavior at the time. So I take a lot of the blame on that one. Anyways we're at least able to co-exist in the same club and within the fringes of the same circles without awkwardness which is good. And Sam if you ever read this, I'm sorry I was such an ass (understatement of the century) to you when we broke up and I hope one day you can accept my profound apologies on the matter. I can only excuse my bad behavior by saying that I really loved you at the time and didn't want it to end. But so it goes.... I digress.

I ran into Gina, my hairdresser and her fabulous gay boy friends. They were all a total blast! She was drunk off her ass and still drank a ton more. Man can that woman hold her alcohol! I would have been passed out on the floor had I had that much to drink. They were so fun though and they all kept going off about how totally hot I was which was really great for the ego. Thanks! I saw and talked to Akemi a girl I knew from the Rockabilly scene who's still going out with Barry after 5 years! Wow, that's a long time! For me at least.

There were also some sfnetter folks there like Shadow Phredd aka Marissa who I didn't talk to but I saw her there. Rob as in Asia/Rob from back in the day. He was working there. I did manage at one point to talk to him for a bit which was fun. He was surprised to see me since it had been years and years since I'd last seen him. I'm sure he didn't even recognize me. I wouldn't have recognized him if Ben hadn't of pointed him out. Oh yes, I ran into Ben. What a trip that was! If you recall I wrote about Ben in April of last year. He's my old friend who I had fallen out of touch with that I saw on 20/20 being reunited with his birth mom due to some crazy unusual circumstances which you can read all about yourself!

It was so nice to see Ben. I spent most of the evening hanging out with him just talking about whatever and reminiscing a bit. The first time I ever went to the Cat Club Ben took me there. We're talking 1996 here. Ben and Sam are friends and they hang out in the same social circle basically but it was a trip for me to see them both in the same place at the same time since Ben was my closest friend while I was going out with Sam. If I wasn't with Sam I was primarily with Ben. We worked together and hung out together all the time. I miss having friends like that. I have a few, but not at the level of friendship I had with Ben. Anyway, after most likely driving Ben crazy from hanging around him too much I then I took off, went to eat with super drunken funny Ken (no not Ben, KEN) at Sparky's, dropped him off at home then headed home myself. You know, while it was great seeing Ben our lives are so different from each other's now it's not like we could just hang out again. I mean I wish we could but I don't see how it would work like it used to. Back then sfnet was our social circle and now we've evolved into new circles. I'm too much of a drifter I guess. I float through circles a lot.

It's nice to know you can still have fun when you see some people though. I'm sure if I go back to 1984 in five years I'll run into some of the same people all over again. I used to think SF was a big place but really it's not. I always run into people that I used to know. Well that's also probably because tastes my change somewhat but there are only so many clubs you can go to that have the type of music or scene that you want to hang out in. It's still weird though. I went out with Sam from 1995-1996. That's EIGHT years ago! Damn! Ben and I haven't hung out 6 or 7 years probably. That seems like an eternity. It's like when I saw Shannon a couple months ago. I hadn't see her in ten years. The years seem to drop away though like it's only been 6 months or something. It nowhere near feels like that many years have passed already. I'm happy that Shannon is back in my life too and I definitely wouldn't mind running into Ben again. Good times, good memories.

You know I still have my prom dress from my 1988 Junior Prom. It's white and lacey. It's times like this I wish I had a scanner. My prom pics are totally good for a laugh. I had some big hair in those photos too. Dave my old friend was my boyfriend and prom date at the time. What a raucous night that was. I seem to recall getting into some rip roaring fights and ashing in his lap in Lyon's. Back when you could smoke in restaurants. We did have some fun times though, like going to the Hyatt Regency for dinner with our friends in that rotating restaurant. We felt like such adults. And singing along in the car to Fishbone while Chris Stelz chauffeured us because his girlfriend Marisa had already promised to go to the prom with this other guy Chris before they started going out. Wow, what drama that was! I have the crappiest memory though, who was the other couple we were with... Dave? Help me out here! Ah well, crazy prom night, crazy memories. At least it was interesting! I can never complain that I haven't had an interesting life.

Me as a South Park character! 

And no I don't mean that kick ass band from Sweden.

Yes that's right, I broke out in a mighty case of hives this week! I've had itchy skin conditions before in my life but not in many many years, so I figured I was having a rash or something. It started out as welts on my legs and by last night anything I rubbed or itched broke out in welts, including my forehead and all over my neck! This started slowly on Tuesday and escalated into welt hell by last night. Plus I'd been having some strange chest pains and by last night I was starting to lose my voice.

I saw an allergist this morning and he was able to narrow down what the problem with me was. Apparently if you recall from previous blog posts, all that respiratory illness that I had on/off three times in March never quite went away. He called it a case of not sufficiently being healed from my original illnesses. I was also previously on two different types of antibiotics which he said weren't taken long enough to kill off whatever this is that's out to get me. The hives and other ensuing problems were apparently my body's way of freaking out and letting me know, HELLO! I'm still sick! FIX ME PLEASE! So it wasn't something touching my skin causing the problem but the illness inside coming out. Lovely!

So my very nice doctor gave me a dose of Zyrtec, the new allergy med I'm going to be taking instead of Clarinex and he put me on a steroid called Prednasone for 9 days. He gave me my first dose this morning and let me tell you... within one hour every single hive all over my body, and there were a bunch, completely disappeared. Voila! Gone! Like they never existed. Yes prednasone has some bad side effects but man what a relief! No more itching, no more welts, I felt brand new! Yay! I'm on it for 9 days only though thank god. I have to watch out for side effects like being "bitchy", as my doc put it... oh the jokes I got about that from co-workers today.... or just being depressed for a couple of days. Right now I feel fine, as you do in the beginning, we'll see how the rest of the next week goes. If it gets bad he'll pull me off it right away.

I'm also now on a NEW antibiotic for two whole weeks this time to really kill whatever the heck it is that's gunning for me as well as Cortizone cream in case I itch and Acidophilus to combat any infections from too many antibiotics. Also while I was at the store I picked up a nice multi-vitamin. What the hell. Might as well take something else on top of it. OH... and I have to take a teaspoon of benadryl before bed each night, to help the allergies and to help me sleep since everything else I'm taking promotes insomnia. As if I'm not already an insomniac. It's like some kind of crazy drug store over here! Well I was always one to take some sort of medication so what else is new. It's not like I'll ever quite be pill free.

So on top of all this other junk I have to take I also have my normal meds to take such as Buspar, which is good for being mellow, Flonase spray, which is good for preventing allergy attacks and microgestrin, which is good for not having kids. I don't have to take Zoloft anymore and I haven't since last February or thereabouts. My doctor felt that I didn't need it anymore since I was down to such a small dose and he was right. I haven't felt down or bummed or super mad or OCD or anything since I got off of it. I feel really great actually, oh except I have HIVES! Damn youuuu hives! All I have to say is I'm super glad this happened this week and not next week when my birthday shindig is. How much would that have sucked? (Knock on Wood and all that mumbo jumbo)

**Warning: Strong Language with lots of the C word**

Leave it to HBO to come out with yet another engrossing drama series. Other than Oz I've been hooked on just about every one of them. Sopranos, Sex and the City, Six Feet Under, Carnivale... Deadwood is up to episode ten at this point. I finally got around to watching the ones I have saved up on my UltimateTV box. I haven't caught up quite yet but I've made it through 5 episodes so far.

Yes I like the series, yes it's definitely one I'm going to keep watching. Is it one of my favorites? Probably not but it's entertaining. Timothy Olyphant is always fun to watch because he's hot and all. Keith Carradine is great as Wild Bill Hickock, he's definitely one of my favorites characters for as long as he's on there. I even like the evil nasty saloon owner Al Swearengen. He's like the Michael Corleone of the Old West. There's actually quite a few good actors on the show. The old west backdrop and nasty town politics make for some interesting storylines.

The biggest problems I have with the show are the dirt and the language. Not that I'm not one to swear up a storm from time to time but the dialogue is just over the top. "Cocksucker" and "Fuck" or "Fucker" are by far the most used words on the show, closely followed by "Cunt". If you have sensitive ears then by no means watch this show. It even makes me a bit uncomfortable. I think it actually takes away from the story a bit to have every other word be "cocksucker". From the bad guys maybe, but even the good guys are throwing out the C word liberally left and right. Yeesh. Did people in the old west really talk like that? They don't even swear half that much on the Sopranos. **Note: I just read an article by Old West Historians on the use of language in this show and how accurate it is. Apparently yes, it is indeed accurate. Okay. Fine. Accepted, but still a bit much for me.

The dirt and grit are good and bad. It's realistic to see a dirty dusty western gold mining town. Lots of mud and filth. Probably not many baths. But why are the miners all always streaked in dark brown dirt? The makeup department must have a lot of work on their hands every week with the streaky sweaty look everyone seems to have. That and bruised beaten up whores. That's another nice look. I'm not saying everyone should be squeeky clean but on one episode it looked like they walked through some kind of streaky, dirty assembly line before they started shooting that day. Little over the top. **Note: This show HAS been praised for its gritty accurate and realistic portrayal of life in the Old West.

I don't really have a problem with nudity on shows like this except for the scene with the nasty sweaty brown dirt streaked, gap toothed, pot bellied miner guy holding his dick with his pants around his ankles, naked whore in the background yelling out some unintelligible crap. Was that *really* necessary? It's gonna be awhile before I can get that gross image out of my head. And before I forget I have to mention Calamity Jane. Great acting job, horrible character. The first few episodes showed her as nothing but a manly, surly, overly angry character prone to screaming outbursts at just about everything. It was painful to watch. I had to cringe every time she was on screen cause she'd burst out screaming as if she had tourettes or something. Ow, my eardrums. She's getting a little less annoying as the show goes on but she's definitely one of my least favorite characters to watch.

So would I recommend Deadwood? Only if you're a big fan of HBO dramas or a fan of the Old West. This will be right up your alley. Otherwise I wouldn't tell you to go out of your way to try and catch it like I would the Sopranos or Sex and the City when it was on. My friend Dave loves the show though. He's into history so this is right up his alley. Oh and yes, the show characters are real, with real storylines. It's not all made up.

You know my birthday is coming up. June 5th to be exact. Not many shopping days left if you feel like picking up a little something something for me! :P I added a few affordable items to my girlshop registry, hint hint! ---->

I'm going to be friggin 33 this year! I don't feel 33. I don't think I look 33. I'm not sure what 33 is supposed to look and feel like for me anyways. I thought I found a gray hair on my head today and I was totally suprised until I realized that it was actually a piece of bleached hair that was showing white again since parts of my purple hair are so faded right now. You know, 10 years ago I figured I'd be married by now. While I'm not married, I do have a pretty good job and a good life so I can't complain too much. I would have liked to own a house by now though and I'm happy that I don't have any children yet. Not ready for that kind of responsiblity just yet, thanks!

Every new year and every birthday I think, "Oh this year's going to be THE year". What I mean by that I'm not exactly sure but it definitely hasn't been THE year yet. I'm not going to be negative and think that THE year might never happen dammit. But I'm still waiting!

My birthday this year falls on a Saturday. I'll be going to dinner with what started out as a small group of friends and turned into a very LARGE group of friends. Then we'll be going to a party afterwards. I hope it's as fun as it sounds on paper! I hate planning birthday parties and get togethers. I used to try and plan big ones but it got to be too stressful. This year I opted for the most low maintenance event I could. The most I had to do was make the reservation and send out the evite. Everything else is already available, including the party. I'll be sure to post debaucherous details and photos after the fact.

So here's to hoping that a) my birthday dinner/party night is THE night and b) that this is THE year for me.

So my friends have started putting up their own blogs. It's fun to read what other people have to write especially people I know. Some are anonymous while others have no problem letting the world know who they are. Sometimes I wonder if I should have kept mine anonymous. I think my writings might have been a bit more in depth and interesting had I done so.

I started reading the blog of a new blog friend recently. The best part about her blog is that it's completely anonymous. No one in her life knows she writes it and she changes peoples names in it. That gives her the freedom to post every little thing about something that happens to her. What I mean by that is she can talk shit and no one will be the wiser. I don't mean just trash talking but talking about things that may not always be pleasant for the people involved to hear. Real things though and real happenings. Or things about herself that she may not want to share with people she knows (I hope I'm stating this right <--- see what I mean).

I can't post as much detail on my blog because too many people I know read it. Sure I have a lot of feelings and thoughts about life and love and happiness and sadness and the day to day. But what's okay to say? Not much without pissing someone off, or peaking someone's interest about something that's probably none of their business, or getting in trouble for saying the wrong thing. But then again, blogs are public things, and why do we all blog anyways? Random strangers come and read about our days and the things we do, and why do we want this kind of attention? I guess it's a way to be heard. I like to think of it as an excercise in learning how to write in a way that will make people want to read it. That's why I started it at least.

Now it's more of a way to express myself and communicate. It's like talking to a friend and rambling without having to call them up and drive them crazy. Some people blog aboutinteresting movies, or events or reviews and some people blog the day to day. To each their own. I like a bit of both myself. I'll continue to weigh out how much I will and won't post on here in the future. So far the most reaction I've gotten is a phone call questioning why I would post certain feelings about a situation and a nasty comment about another "sharing" post. Not everyone's going to be happy all of the time. That's human beings for ya.

This is my attempt at using BloggerBot for the first time. I want to see if it works better than the manual way I edit and post pics, which is a pain in the ass. Here's a lovely photo of some cookies and candy my co-worker Hiromi brought back for me from Japan. Yes I ate it all.

Which do you like better? The pop up windows or this? This ones easier to use but the little java popups are really cool too. It's much more tedious to the java popups... I wonder if this little widget will start doing that eventually... Comments? Suggestions?  

Okay my last poll was too morbid even for me, so I deleted and started over. This one has to do with where you'd live if you had to move and why. I ask this because I don't think I want to be in the bay area forever. I like it here but at some point I'm need to branch out and live in another area. Somewhere more affordable. I definitely want to own a house one day still.

I think part of the reason I cling to this area so much is that I spent my whole life moving around the world with my dad who was a civil engineer. I lived in Africa, the Caribbean and Asia. I've also visited many countries. While I wouldn't trade it for anything in the whole world, there's something nice about having a place you can call home. A place that you can say you're from. California is the closest thing I've got to that. I moved here when I was 15 and this is the longest place I've ever lived. I love the ocean though and want to be somewhere close to the water. I can't imagine living in the middle of the country where the ocean wasn't close enough to drive to (and I don't mean drive to in 5 days). There's just something beautiful and calming about the water. I probably picked that up from living on an island for 2 years when I was a kid.

I still have the travel bug in me and the itch to do new things. Which is also probably why I have a hard time "settling" down. I don't want to just settle. If you know what I mean. So for now, I stay here and ponder other possiblities.

Don't forget to take the poll. I only had ten spaces for options to I picked the first ten cities that came to mind. You can always do a write in!

So a friend of mine went to see Troy today and he said it sucked pretty badly. This of course is coming from my friend who loves to see movies like this, even if they do stink a bit. He loves the special effects and the action. So for him to say it sucked, it probably really really sucked. So instead of seeing that tonight I wound up seeing Shrek 2 instead.

It started out kind of slow and I was a bit skeptical as to how funny it would be. Entertainment Weekly gave it an A- and the viewer reviews I read were great. So yes, while it started out slow it sure picked itself up later on! I had quite a few laugh out loud moments while watching it. Puss in Boots was by far my most favorite character in the movie. Antonio Banderas does the voice for him and he's really really good. I laughed the most at the Puss in Boots parts. Hilarious! I had to wipe a tear away at one point from the laughter. It wasn't side splitting per se but it was damn funny. There were lots of pop culture references in the film too which were amusing. The voices in the film were great too. Julie Andrews, John Cleese, Rupert Everett, Jennifer Saunders. I don't really want to give away any little fun details of this movie because it would ruin it, so I'll refrain.

For some light hearted fun with some good laughs in it go see Shrek 2. A lot of people have written that they like it better than the first one. I haven't seen the first one in forever so I can't say that for sure. But it was definitely very good. Yay, finally a good movie comes out! What a relief. There have been a crop of bad ones out lately. Yucko. Harry Potter comes out June 4th. Can't wait to see that one either!

there was nothing going on this week. BLAMMO! You get 2 new evites in your inbox today. I actually had to cancel dinner plans tonight in order to have a night to myself this week. I got an invite to something last night but I wanted to chill out so I reclaimed Monday night for myself as well.

Tomorrow night is 049 Karaoke Night #5 at Shawn's art/loft space in the SOMA. It's a great space and he has a pretty kick ass monthly party there. Karaoke is a bi-weekly event. I've yet to miss one! The Karaoke nights started out pretty small, maybe 10-12 people or so. The last one was surprisingly big. Ton of people showed up. Tomorrow night's promises to be another big one considering the number of people that have RSVP'ed on evite. It's good fun though. There's a bar, a pole for all those wanna be strippers out there, plenty of songs to sing to, doggies, ping pong and swing dancing!

Mark took some photos from 049 Karaoke Night #3. I brought Toby that night. The pics are a bit hard to see since copying photos down from the printroom site doesn't get you the best quality photos.

Here's a photo of a group of us singing "Happy Trails" at the end of the night (note little Toby up on stage with us in the bottom left):


A nice crowd shot of people dancing and carrying on:


Me, in between Randall and Andy on the couch:


Bridget brought her sweet little pooch Jewel to the last one. We both agreed to bring both our pups tomorrow night. Should be intersting! At least they're both great around big crowds. Just let them roam around, no worries!

So that covers Wed night! Thursday some friends and I may go see Troy. Yes I know the reviews sucked but it's got Orlando Bloom in it, super hottie. Oh wait, there's also Brad Pitt and Eric Bana... triple the hotties! Yup, worth seeing. Friday, the band Theo's in this week is playing a show at the Starry Plough in Berkeley. They're called The Teenage Harlets and have been around for a bit. Should be fun. After we catch them we're jetting back to the city to head to Jackie's friend Joy's mega 80's party on Fillmore. Gotta figure out what to wear for that one! Can't beat the 80's though, best decade ever! Saturday Erin is DJ'ing a night called "Death before Disco". I will hopefully be able to catch that one.

Hey at least it's better than having nothing going on, right? Like last weekend was pretty quiet. Of course we all found things to do anyway, which included starting out party'ing in Santa Cruz sat. night... winding up in SF with the santa cruz folks later that night and getting trapped in SF Sunday morning due to the Bay to Breakers. That sucked! Had to wait til 10am when the embarcadero streets opened up in order to get home. That was a LONG saturday night to say the least. I met a whole bunch of new Santa Cruz folks though since I was there visiting my old friend Jack who was staying at some surfer buddies house down there. Nice group!

I guess this much activity makes those alone nights that much more wonderful. And at least I don't have to worry about being alone or not having anything to do. There's always something going on somewhere! :)

Scoring Explanation

Score of 38-48

CHARACTERISTICS:
can deal with lots of change
problem solves on-the-spot
negotiates
troubleshoots
develops art or tinkers with equipment
practical
finds resources to get a job done

BEST FITS:
Digital Media and Web Development
design graphics and layout and interactive media for web pages
design and maintain web sites
Technical Support
respond quickly to help others solve computer problems
Database Developer and Administrator
help people design systems for tracking of lots of different kinds of information on the computer
Computer programming/Engineering
write programs in computer languages that instruct computers to do certain tasks
Also consider Technical Support jobs in television, live presentations or theatre.
trouble shoot technical problems onsite

The world of IT requires problem solving and trouble shooting in a fast paced environment. Your combination of interest in the technical and your interest in people means you might especially like the world of IT. To get a better idea of specific applications of IT in which you might be interested, take the Multiple Intelligences Inventory.

Hahaha, I got this one off of Dooce.com. Pretty amusing, considering I'm 32. Although I'll be turning 33 next month. I have had quite a few people guess my age at 26 though! And they weren't even trying to be flattering! Or at least I don't think they were... Nevertheless, this article could be about me! :P

**My new blog allows me to add links to the titles, so I guess I'll be posting this "Please click on the link in the title" note, until people figure it out.**

The latest and greatest poll was "Men are Pigs, What say you?".
The results are in!

Votes:
Yes - 10
No - 4
Other - 10

Comments:
- im a man
- Based upon personal experience as a male, I am forced to state that they are indeed not. :-P
- yes pigs we are
- you came across wrong men:)
- only because women are psycho - yeah, we are pigs.
- in general, i agree. but will vary on an individual basis. - if men are pigs then wemon are the slop that they feed on. *kiss*
- women aren't pigs we're um, piglets
- no more so than women.
- Generally men are men and pigs are pigs, except in the case of Rodney Smith, who had a pig tail.
- Don't give men the benefit of the doubt, they really are all pigs, whether conciously or not.
- pigs, yes, but maybe worse. pigs do not have the mental capabilities to overcome their natural instincts while men do, and chose not to use it.
- Okay maybe not all men are pigs, but this is this weeks theme for me.

This poll was much more sucessul than my last poll "UGG boots, fashion or FUGLY?". I like the comments, so keep 'em comin' people! Men are pigs is apparently a hot topic. :) I'll be posting a bit more controversial poll next. Be sure to take it, it's anonymous!

Okay so I rebuilt the blog from the last disaster and re-added the new Blogger comment functionality. What this means is that I had to "recap" some of the comments made on posts earlier this week by reposting them. Blogger got rid of the old format I used so those comments won't show up now. I had to disable comments on a couple of posts due to the mess that was caused when I first tried learning how the comment feature worked.

My biggest gripe about the new comment feature is that if I don't like a comment I can erase it, but that doesn't mean the slate is clean. The comment counter will still indicate that there is a comment but instead of there being a comment you'll see a notice that the post has been deleted by the administrator. So it still junks up the post! LAME! Blogger please fix this! Thanks!

I'm trying out one of the new templates. It looks nice and all but since it's a template that many others will use I will most likely customize it to my liking. Not tonight of course since doing all that other crap sucked up my entire freakin' evening! Eh I enjoy tinkering with webpages. That was the best job ever, being a web developer... building stuff, being creative... but I digress.

Please leave me some feedback about this new blog compared to the old one. Does it suck? Do you like it? If you need something to compare against, please feel free to review the archives on to your right.

This is a Fish Sticks Public Service Announcement:
This concerns some changes to the Comments portion of my Blog, New Titles, and Linking Functionality.

For awhile tonight I decided to try and take advantage of the new Comment functionality that Blogger now offers. Of course by doing so it obliterated my old comments which I would like to have a record of. A work around for this problem was to not republish my entire blog but to instead only republish the index. This is of course until I accidentally republished the entire blog. Why can't blogger make this easy ferchrisakes?? Anyway, I still plan on moving over to the new Comment function. I just have to figure out the best way to do it. It made a horrendous mess tonight when I tried it so I plan on waiting a bit before I attempt it again to allow things to clear out.

I am also now taking advantage of the new Title function. So my title's will be spiffer and nicer to read now. I will no longer have to paste them and add < h5 > < / h5 > tags around my little headers again. Also I can add relevant Links to my titles! Of course no matter how much automated functionality Blogger now offers, I still had to edit the template to get my titles to link and edit the template to make the links a) not have underlines and b) launch in a new window.

If I get really ambitious tonight I will use the new template that I happen to like as well.

Wish me luck I think it will be messy.

Read last sunny, happy happy, joy joy, fields of daisies, little bunnies frolicking in pink undies post when feeling sad, down or blue about life whatsoever. Because there ain't no reason to feel down. So buck up little camper and get back on that bike and keep peddling down that road. Yeah!

(no I have not been drinking)

Phew, a night to myself. Oh happy day. Not that I mind having friends and family visit. I love seeing everyone I have in the last couple of weeks. It's just great to have my place to myself on such a lovely evening. It's also great to spend an evening at home without feeling rushed to go out just because it's Friday. I have lots of other stuff planned for the rest of the weekend so why not just enjoy my Friday for me? That's right! Me Time!

Speaking of me time. Here's some thoughts I have on life now as who I am today, at this moment, a single person living life. It's interesting. The whole grass is always greener thing. When you're single you don't want to be, and when you're not single you miss the good single times. At least some people feel that way. I know I have in the past. There are so many things I love about being single that it makes it difficult sometimes to imagine having to give those things up. The one thing I know I love the most is having time to myself. I can have a whole weekend to myself if I want it. Pretty much when I want it! I know when I've lived with people it's been tough to get time to myself and being single really makes me appreciate these moments.

I've had a lot of ups and downs in my dating life. Lots of highs and lows and while I'd definitely trade in some of them not all of my experiences were bad. What I take away from my life's experience up to this point is the knowledge that I'm just THAT much closer to what it is I'm looking for in my life. That thing I've always known I've wanted but haven't quite found yet. Sure I've wasted time doing other things which were just pointless, but it's all part of learning about who I am as a person. I've been on this road a long time and sure I've made mistakes but I'm happy with the person I'm still evolving to be. The person I was say 5 years ago or even 10 years ago is a complete stranger to the person I've become today.

I've been out there in the thick of things, fighting the good fight! Trying to experience life and find what I want. Trying this type of person, or that type of place to live. This type of friend, that type of social scene and so on and so forth. I'm not a perfect person and heck I may not even be a great person to some but this is who I am and this is who I have to work with. All I can do is strive to find happiness in my own life and hope to make others happy around me (at least some of the time). I can't justify who I am to people. All I can do is hope that people can understand and accept who I am if they so choose to. I'm not such a bad person. ;) Try me, you may like me!

Life's pretty nice. I've got a good group of friends that are pretty supportive of me. Amazing friends that bring a lot of joy and fun to my life. I could fill every night of the week spending time with a different friend and that thought makes me happy. It makes me happy to know that there are so many great people around me. Friends really are one of the most important things you can have in your life.

And hey not that I'm trying to redeem any brownie points but I've paid some dues and I'm thinking that maybe something extra special is just around the corner for me. You never know. Whether it is or not, it's just like that crappy song "Don't worry, Be Happy". Yeah the song stinks but it's spot on to how I'm feeling right about now.

You ever know anyone who liked to piss on your parade? You say you like Chocolate and they say Chocolate sucks ass! Who the F*** would ever eat Chocolate?! Then a week later they're eating Chocolate and telling everyone it's cool? I know people like that. They make me nuts. I know there's a name for that kind of person/behavior (other than poser) but I can't remember what that is right now. What I do know is that people like that must be really unhappy because they feel the need to make other people unhappy with them. It's not that they don't like what you like, it's that you like it and they just don't want you to be happy. Even if it's Chocolate and Choclate rocks! Well piss on them!

CBS is giving a million bucks away to one of the 18 All Star Survivors of YOUR choice! Cast your vote BEFORE Thursday for who should get the million bucks!

I voted for (Boston) Rob Mariano. Multiple times! He got robbed Sunday night. He should have won that million bucks. That was the whiniest most pathetic jury I've ever seen. Rob was absolutely the best player that game has ever seen and he totally deserves to walk away with the cash. I was almost completely pleased by the ending to this seasons survivor. I just think Rob and Amber should have switched places but otherwise it ROCKED!

Hate Rob and Amber all you want but I love 'em! Vote ROB! VOTE NOW! Even if you don't watch, go there and vote for Rob to win. You can vote as many times as you want .Come on! I'll give ya a dollar!

People are going to hate me. :P

VOTE ROB M.!

So the power went out at work today as I was on my way out. No biggie for me. But man, I could have left a MINUTE sooner as the parking lot and surrounding streets were full of cars as everyone stampeded out of the buildings like rats from a sinking ship. The body wasn't even cold, damn! I wonder if the power is back on yet? I hope it stays out for a day or two and we don't have to go to work like when we were kids and school was snowed in. Well at least when I was a kid in elementary school in Michigan. Ohmygosh, that would rock! Of course I'm sure that won't be the case. Work sucks like that.

I saw Kill Bill Vol 2. tonight finally. Um. I liked it, but man was I tired afterwards. It sure was "wordy". Tarantino really likes his long drawn out character monologues. Like Bill's whole comic book hero analogy. Zzzzz. Get to the point already! I felt like that a few times during that movie. It was still a good movie nevertheless. They pretty much explained just about everything you might have wondered about the story line. As Johnny said, there really wasn't much to discuss afterwards. I'm interested to see how the whole thing flows as one movie when it finally comes out altogether on DVD.

Tomorrow is Toby's first day at Dog's Life Day Care. I took a little tour today and Toby got to run around with some of the dogs. He really loved it and I thought the facility was adorable. They're very new and just getting their clientele built up. I hope they're successful! We'll see how Toby likes it over the long run but it looks great. Now that dogs have been banned on campus I'm not the only msft dog owner that will be leaving their dog there during the day. Toby will only be going about once a week since he spends Mondays and Fridays at the house with Johnny's dog Luci and they get to go to the park during lunch and after work on those days. Duh me but there's a friggin' huge park including an off leash area for dogs a block from here. I guess I never walked him THAT direction. Silly.

Tonight I will attempt to go to bed early since I have to be up early to get Toby to day care. I want him to get his full day there! Plus Kammie's coming into town tomorrow evening and I want to be able to jet out of work at a decent time to see her. She'll be visiting at my place for two days then heading down to Santa Cruz this weekend. I always LOVE her visits. It's nice to see a good friend that you've known for years and can trust. Sometimes I feel that I just don't get to see enough of my really close friends. Having Cristy in Seattle and Kammie in Vermont makes things tough sometimes. Anyway, it will be great to see her.

Okay time to clean up the place, then get ready for bed. Or force myself to at least. I've been having some freaky messed up dreams again. Maybe it's too many horror films. I'm not sure how to "improve" the quality of my dreams. I'll take any suggestions anyone might have though!

Wow the blogger dashboard interface thing has totally changed. For the better I think! Look at all that technology go! I like it so much now I may not move to movable type yet! I say that as if I was steadily working on this so called move to movable type and have now decided to stop. As opposed to doing nothing about it, which I was doing... which was nothing.

In another news, I am delaying my trip to Paris next month. Planning a trip with such short advance notice is a) costly and b) stressful. Plus Sunny needs to find a new apartment since she has since moved from her apartment and currently has no place to live until further notice. So I may go in September instead. I have a tattoo I'd like so she's already going to start working on a drawing for me. It's one I've wanted for a long long time and I think I'll just take the plunge and get it finally. Sure would be easier if she lived nearby! I'm okay with it all though. Monetarily it's the best decision.

My dad and stepmom were just in town for a few days. They had a nice time. We ate lots of great ethnic foods (since Virginia seems to have a shortage of good ethnic food)and did some sightseeing. I went on my first wine tasting trip ever to Bonnie Doon Winery with them. That place is in such a beautiful location and they have some of the coolest, wackiest, arty wine labels I've ever seen. I picked up a poster of this one. The wine is called "Il Circo-Uva di Troia "La Violetta" 2001". I wasn't a fan of how it tasted but the label is right up my alley. Plus the name too of course.



I'm still thinking about the implications of moving to Seattle but not in any immediate sense. It's just a thought I'm toying around with along with the many other thoughts I toy around with all the time. I know I'm not ready to move just yet though. I *heart* California. I definitely do. I just don't *heart* the cost of living here. Not one bit. I'm just not ready to commit to any big decisions like that yet! Typical.

De La Soul was a fun show last night... except all the audience was white, or asian. Where were all the bruthas and/or sistahs? Seriously! It was a hip hop show ferchrissakes! Sigh. It was fun anyway! I was representin' and sheeit.

I got a fabulous hour long "Oxygen Luxury" facial today at Beauty Clinica which I enjoyed. I had to lay there with a mask on my face a bit too long but otherwise my skin feels fabulous now. The beauty regime they recommend you do for your skin is crazy though. You need like 6 bottles of crap to do a morning/evening thing. They were nice enough to give me samples to get me hooked on a bunch of stuff they'd like me to pay for. Maybe when I'm rich. No wonder why rich people look so good. If I was rich I'd get skin treatments and massages and crap all the time. I'd be fabulous seven days a week!

Next time I'm going to try the spa in Sunnyvale. It's my goal to find the perfect spa in this area, so I'll have to slowly try them all out. I say slowly cause getting a facial ain't cheap. It's not something I'm going to be doing that often. I need a massage next I think. I have to find a good place for that too.

I found two kick ass pictures at Goodwill that match my room perfectly. They are big framed prints. I'll take photos later. It's late now and I have to bathe the dog still. He rolled in dead bird today. Yummy.

Reasons to move to Seattle:
- Nice friendly people
- Nice city with a good music scene
- The ability to purchase a 3 plus bedroom home (with a friend) in the actual city
- New friends
- Family lives up there
- New places to see and things to do
- More job opps at Msft, more divisions

Reasons to stay in California:
- The weather!
- My job (I like my particular job, I love my boss)
- My friends! ALL of my friends! So many friends! :'(
- The food! So many varieties.
- Tapioca Tea and Squid, I'm not sure if I can live without my fix.
- The shopping!
- Proximity to LA, Tahoe and Las Vegas

I landed today and the weather was GORGEOUS and WARM. AHHH. Makes it hard to think about moving. It would be weird to leave SF. I love it here. We'll see I guess!

Hey remember all that whiny uncertainty crap I posted on 4/30? I figured out what my problem was and ta da! I feel a lot lighter about things now. I'm happier as well! Yay me!

Okay I'm still in Seattle, having a good time. It was supposed to rain yesterday and today. Yesterday it sorta sprinkled a tiny bit and today it's a bit windy and cold, but it's all good. Anyway, I read my yahoo horrorscopes today and I had to post them because for once they're pretty right on. Cristy and I got a good laugh out of them!

Daily Horrorscope from Astrology.com:
This morning could be a bit tricky, mostly because you probably stayed up way too late last night -- but for wonderful reasons. Hang tough, though. By tonight, it will all be a distant memory, and you'll have your second wind.

Weekly Horrorscope from Astrology.com:
You're feeling weirdly good for a Monday this week; take your fine self out on the town, even if it's just to a movie or a cafe. The person lucky enough to be with you or meet you there will be happy indeed. Midweek's all about getting better insight on romance, so look for it in unexpected places, and remember that the best way to get answers is to ask questions. Thursday and Friday both offer up possibilities for good times -- ones where the outcome is up to you. Things won't be so clear on the weekend; uncover a romantic hidden agenda (it could be your own!).

Yup Monday night was a good time out.... ahem. And I'm only a little hungover today. ;)